“Te quiero hacer el amor en las mañanas aunque se nos haga tarde, y te lo quiero hacer en las noches aunque nos desvelemos.”
— (via rocesecreto)
“Te quiero hacer el amor en las mañanas aunque se nos haga tarde, y te lo quiero hacer en las noches aunque nos desvelemos.”
— (via rocesecreto)
* Can’t stop touching my body/can’t stop pinching my fat
* Sucking in your stomach when you’re around people so they don’t see your fat
* Lying too much bc of food
* Body checking in every mirror that you pass
* Also ignoring your body in the mirror so you don’t cry
* Spending all day looking at thinspo instead of fulfilling your responsibilities
* Distancing yourself from everybody
* Having unrealistic expectations and goals for yourself
I feel attacked
* Rubbing your collarbones, ribs, hip bones
* Checking for any difference in your thigh gap
* Trying not to gag while drinking green tea
* Exercising whenever you have a moment of privacy
* Watching Netflix/napping to avoid eating
* Running to the bathroom was lax kicks in
* Curled up in bed crying because of hunger pains
* Doing that thing with your hand around your wrist/arm to see if you can touch fingers together yet
* Waiting until everyone falls asleep to do silent workouts in peace w/out getting caught
*Running to the school bathroom to purge when you’re forced to eat during a fast
* Punishing yourself for having the basic human need of the nutrients that come in food
* C O U N T I N G C A L O R I E S
* Bad sleep habits
* Constantly measuring/weighing yourself
*Sucking in your stomach while trying on clothes to see how much better you’d look in them if you were skinny
* Doing that thing with your hands around your thigh to see how far up you can get your fingers to touch
* Passing out from over-exercising
* Hiding in the school bathroom to keep from being forced to eat
* Over-estimating your calories
* Always thinking about the next time you can measure/weigh yourself
* Being extremely dizzy when you stand up but have to walk it off and act normal so no one suspects anything
* Trying to hide your Tumblr account
* Drinking too much water or not enough
* Always feeling dehydrated for some reason
* Not being able to poop
* Weird stomach noises at the worst times
* Headaches
* Shaking
* Cold. All. The. Time
* Forcing yourself to take the stairs every time you’re given the opportunity, no matter how little you’ve eaten
* Isolating yourself in your room all day
* Going to the grocery store, looking through every aisle, gazing at all the food only to leave with nothing
* Developing not only a fear but an utter disgust for certain foods (etc. meat or even all animal products)
* Leaving class every hour to pee and fill your water bottle up
* Hate seeing/feeling your stomach touch your thighs when you sit down to pee
* Basing your own worth and others’ based off their weight/size
* Can’t go to the bathroom without lifting up shirt to check stomach and ribs in the mirror
* Chewing gum to simply stay focused
* Sleep schedule run amok because you’re so demotivated to anything but the bare minimum these days due to your malnutrition, plus sleeping is a good loophole to avoid eating
* Having no friends because you don’t want to go out with them for food
* Spending copious amounts of money on food only to binge on it and feel even worse, plus now you’re broke
* Taking a body check every day even though there’s no difference
* Purposely weighing yourself at inopportune times to trigger yourself just bc you’re “curious”
* Knowing the measurements of every part of your body, even your toes
* Losing your personality to your eating disorder
honestly didn’t even realize that i did 90% of these things because of my ed… huh
I feel exposed
attacked
I don’t want to date. I just want to magically end up in a long-term and emotionally-secure relationship with someone cute
This is my favorite thing
“Te quiero hacer el amor en las mañanas aunque se nos haga tarde, y te lo quiero hacer en las noches aunque nos desvelemos.”
— (via rocesecreto)